He Left Me, He Found Me

My love left me. It wasn't the first time. My heart stupidly yearns for him. My unfeeling brain tells me to get over it. The push and pull within, rips me in half just like a cheesy paper heart torn in two. Yet, no other image I can conjure up is more accurate to describe the ache I feel inside. The emptiness. The loneliness.

How can a person invoke such joy and yet such agony? How can my heart still long for the one who broke it? Why can't I move on as easily as he did? Why did he move on? Am I not worthy of lasting love? We laughed. We loved. We cried. I gave him everything. I still want to give him everything. I want to add his name to mine in the love equation that equals forever. I want him to call to tell me he made a huge mistake. That he is coming back. That he never meant to hurt me. I want him to end this pain.

Yet, I've circled Broken Heart Boulevard too many times and I can't travel down it again. I need to take the next exit off this road. God is telling me to take the upcoming ramp to healing. He is ready to ride shotgun, strapped in for the long haul. There is no one else I'd rather take this road trip with. He knows the way to the Promised Land. I trust His navigational skills.

He promises to not just get me to the land that flows with wholeness and healing, but that He will be my Everlasting Love. That He will never leave me. He won't make me cry. That many days of love and laughter are yet to come. That to Him, I am worth dying for. 

I am worth dying for. The thought makes my broken heart skip a beat. I am loved. Right now, my heart still longs for the one who left, but the One that is here, is more than enough. He is fixing my broken places and filling empty spaces. He wants to be my all. He wants to give ME everything. What a concept. My love left me. It wasn't the first time, but it will be the last. Whether God chooses to restore my love to me or not, I will never be alone again because I choose my Everlasting Love and He will love me forever and ever.

I have loved you, O my people, with an everlasting love; with
loving-kindness I have drawn you to me. Jeremiah 31:3 TLB

~ Anonymous